Sudden

Olla !! I'm back ! My hands are so stiff and my brain is rusty since the last entry. 3 days ago, I think.. Hmm. It feels like a thousand years. I know that I would not get a reply or an answer but I still wanna ask. Any of you guys miss me ?? o.O One? Two? Hahaha.. Forget bout it..

Let us start with 3 days ago. Urmmm..... House painting is done. I love the color but still haven't manage to take a photo. It's been raining every noon here for the past 3 days. 'Sipek' nice to sleep. Lots of free time now that I can't go outdoors. I watched drama a lot these few days. Mostly Singaporean drama. Taiwanese drama became too long for a drama. It has like 80 episode. Da HELL?? Got bored of Taiwanese drama already. Back to Singaporean drama. Now playing on the TV is Sudden.. I know. I know. Uolls would probably go 'Ahhhh' or 'Oooohhhhh' or better, 'Chu Ning' or 'Qi Liang'. Cool down !! *fanning

 

Singaporean dramas are way too awesome. On my favorite list would be The Game Plan, Dream Makers and of course Sudden !! Sudden is about law, lawyers etc.. Wikipedia it out. Romeo is so 'shuai' here. *blush

 

Hehehehe..

 

I've been doing great since the past 3 days. Oh ya. My bunny passed away. Sudden without any notice. Urmm.. So not good. I'm left with one bunny. I used to have like 5 bunnies but then since I'm so far away (when in college) I sold them off to family friends. Sell off as what, I don't want to know and I don't ask. They promised me not to eat the rabbits so I'm taking they hold on the deal we made.

 

RIP my boy

 

Ever since the maid is back, the feeding routine is given back to her. I no longer went to the backyard to feed them, pet them and talk to them. And all those construction going on, it must stressed the bunnies out. His death made me realized that there's not only Xiao Ai in the house. There's my long forgotten bunny. So I moved this cutie to the front and take care her needs.

 



Xiao Tu

 

Bought a 'Handy Double-decked Tray' for her as her toilet. So far she peeing and shitting in there cox I put her food bowl in there too. Before uolls start criticizing, I'm fully aware that there's a misplaced dog food in there. And nope, we don't feed bunnies with dog food. It must somehow mixed or dropped in her bowl. Her being in front means I'm taking care of her daily needs. I washed her poops, feed her, cleaned her mess and also trying my best to spend time with her.

 

I'm the only one in the family who loves pets. But having a Mum that hates pets with her life is kinda disturbing. My pets is all under me. I'm using my own pocket money to feed them. I guess that teaches me to be responsible and before you judge again, I do also hope that I am the one that feed them, caring for their needs but sometimes I just don't have enough time. What can I expect from the maid? She's only doing her job. She can't give the best to my pets. So that's where my free time flies.

 

So far, I don't think it's troublesome to take care of Xiao Tu. Cleaning poops is as easy as ABC. I've been going to as far as smelling their poops and cleaning Xiao Ai's poops. Nothing's weird. I'm happy to have her in front of my eyes, healthy.

 

Mum brought me to 'pasar malam' today. It was tortured. I feel like I want to grab all the food. Mum being mum. Say I fat already but keep bringing me to these kind of places. Food Paradise ! Fried chicken, ayam percik, murtabak, opok-opok and many more. HUNGRYYY!!! >.<

 

Why you guys like that one? No post entry don't want visit my blog. Reali no miss me meh? Read my old entries la. Anyway, I'll be posting another recipe of Popo somewhere tomorrow or when I'm free. But it will be up, somehow. It's just that I don't know when yet.

 

 

It's so cold outside

 

See hoe far I sacrificed to post up an entry. In the cold, me sitting here, yawning, typing out sad story. I should just shut everything down and go to sleep. Haihhh.. A long entry. A long time consuming entry. have been typing out since 1 o'clock but got distracted until now, 6.30 am. Finally, it's done. Waiting for 7 to go breakfast with Mum. Can't wait !

 

Thanks for reading. Happy weekends. =D

STRAY

Stray? Straggle? Strategy?

(Hmm... Still thinking how to go with this..)
Let us just start with.....
STRAY  (strae)intr.v. strayed, stray·ing, strays

1.

    a. To move away from a group, deviate from the correct course, or go beyond established limits.

    b. To become lost.

2. To wander about without a destination or purpose; roam.

3. To follow a winding course; meander.

4. To deviate from a moral, proper, or right course; err.

5. To become diverted from a subject or train of thought; digress

When we thought bout strays, we often think of dogs, cats, SPCAs, etc. How they STRAGGLE in big cities? Feed on rubbish and take shelter under a tree. But the only thing I think of when I saw this

 is CRUELTY !!
 

This is the only tiny bits that is exposed. Behind bars, we don't know what happen. 

 

 

These people?

They might do it for their jobs?

Where's law?

I also don't know

Where's justice?

Long forgotten

 

I fully aware that that is their job. But to tell you, their STRATEGY to catch the dogs, SUCKS like banana. They should think of a better way which benefits both parties and this is clearly not the method.

For they, who can't speak for themselves, can only stare, hopping for a justice

 

It feels like the dog there, in the picture, is trying to tell us something. LOOK! His eyes. Red. Pierce into your soul. 

 

 

 And this?

Is left to be rotten there

How hard is it to bury a dog?

Answer me!

 

To add everything up, here's a video that I'll post but I shall not press the button 'play'. 

 

Say whatever you want.

I'm not brave to see what they did to the dogs

 

An article of the news. Well written. Touche. Animal Handlers Cruelty
 

As far as I recalled, few years back, there's a girl that was sued for bitten up kittens. You might think she was caught to jail or something. Nahh.. She was only required to pay fine of RM 500 or something. Just like that. And this people, they are obviously torturing the animals. In public! And why is there no action taken? Becoz they were instructed? 

 

The best prove is from seeing. Seeing is believing. So see for yourself and judge.

 

And if there's a kind person here, please sign this petition. Thanks for the effort to click and type in few things to make a big difference in the lives of the strays. 

 

 

I've signed.

What bout uolls??

 

More evidence?

HERE
 

Malaysia Independent Animal Rescue is a non-profitable organization that helps strays out there. They survive on funding from the public. If and if you think you want to do a good deed today, here's a chance -> MIAR

 

I've always secretly stalking MIAR FB page just like how you guys stalked me. MIAR, a place filled with lots and lots of love. A little short update here of the Husky, MIAR rescued from the breeder in February 2013.

The breeding stock

 

After 3 long months of patience and love...

MIAR once again succeed...
 

Thanks for reading this entry..

Coloring the Walls

And yups. There's no entry yesterday. I feel like I'm going thru mid-life crisis now even thou I'm just 19. Not even officially 19 yet. There's 2 more months to go. Mum been asking day and night what am I planning. She's giving me all sorts of pressure. I'm stressed!!
Grandma-s, Uncle and Aunties are all asking. Is like everybody 'chiak pa tai eng' and decided to be busybody. Can please don't ask ah?? I just don't know !! I'll think when I'm ready. I just don't know what I want. Mum's disappointed over my result. And me myself, too feel very stupid. And my MUET. Of 6 bands, I only got 3. This year really sucks! I want it to end faster.  Nothing went smoothly as I planed. NOTHING !!

The plan is -> Go for Foundation In Science for 1 year. Continue for degree in Bachelor of Pharmacy for 5 years. Come out work with companies 2 years. Borrow loan. Open a pharmacy. Find right guy. Settle down with kids. Retire by opening a small pet shop. Die

I'm sorry to let you, my pals read all those emo stuff that is happening to me right now for the past few days. If it's not here, then where do I go for comfort.? Mum can't stand being in a room with me for more than 2 hours without finding something to hurt me. The only 2 hours we managed to sign a #PeaceNoWar contract is when she's having her noon nap.
And I've avoided going to public places. Whenever I meet someone I know, I would turn back and run. And Mum, she starting to create all those excuses like "Result haven't get", "I don't know" whenever people asked about me. These few days, I noticed I've become more silent and close with Mum and all in the house. The only thing that keep me smiling at the end of the day is

Xiao Ai

How can he be any cuter than this

Back to the point !!! Huhuhu.. Easily got distracted.
 

Last 2 years

Photos taken a day after the horrendous flood

 

 

And there is my Dad's vase. BROKEN!! O.O
 

 

Beach view

 

It happened on 25 December 2011. The best Christmas gift ever. It was half past 9 pm that day. No rain. Everything's fine. I even managed to check the drain for any sign of flood. No. Nothing. Literally 15 minutes later, my dog, Pao Pei was barking. I got a shocked when I went to look. The water was flowing continuously into the house thru the front gate. The car porch was already flooded. I went to check on the back gate when I saw water flowing in at high speed from the gaps in the gate. Terrified was the only word.

 

Shouted for Niki to help while I went upstairs to change off my pajamas. When I was down, I asked my maid to help me carry up my rabbits. It was that moment when we all heard a loud "BANG". Right after that, darkness surround us. We got shocked. It was later then that we realized the whole backyard gate collapsed. 

 

Chaos everywhere. I've never seen anything like this before. The wave was too strong that night. Even though this is normal (the flood) for us, who live here, that year is the worst ever. That's enough information to carry on. No use looking back into the past.

 

After 2 long years, Mum decided to build back the walls. I would say I'm actively involve in the whole construction this time. I'm happy that it's finnally done. Like FINALLY!! It fells like decades living without walls. Super scary coz the asbestos plank can be easily knocked down. The constructions workers are so damn hardworking. It took them only a week to finish. Are they robots or something? Definitely not human.

 

 My new walls

 

I've never in my mind thought that construction thingy will be this 'ma fan'. After wall finished, new wiring, new gate and new painting needed. =_= Of all that, painting would be the hardest! You gotta choose colors for the new walls since Mum wanted to paint the whole house eventually. 

 

You know how people often make their choices based on those painting catalogs. Sometimes, the colors differs. They regret and have to buy another color again. Well, or not, the colors do not match. Here, no worries. Do not like the color? Undo it! Colors don't match? Match it!
 

 

Make an account.

Promise ! 

No 'ma fan'

 

 

Upload a photo of the wall you're gonna paint

 

Outline the walls.

It's only 'click click'

 

 

 Three different areas for 3 different colors

 

 

Blu Blue ?? 

Nahhh *shake head

 

Go Green !??

Hmmm

 

 This ?? *nods head

Perfect !!
 

So easy. Save time and money to repaint again. I love my choice of colors. Matched my green roof. =D It's Buttery Cream (1155) and Coco berry (2133) . And I'm a happi girl now !! 

 

Excited to see when it's totally done. Can't wait !! 

 

Aah, before I doozed off. In case some of you wondering what's the websites, here it is !! Am I a good girl now? Huh? I am, right?? Hahahaha....

 

Thanks for reading this entry... 

Hope you like it!

 

p/s: This is not an advertorial. I'm just sharing my experience out. Hope it helps those who need colors to their walls.

Expectations

Expectation. Expectation. Expectation. I hate it when people put expectation on me. Mum. Grandma. Uncles. Aunties. I guess that's the price to pay of being "smak" *note the sarcasm I'm tired of living with people expectations !!!

I'm not trying to deny. Yeah, it may be true that since small I'm a bright girl since my academic result is not bad.

UPSR: 5A

PMR: 7A

 

SPM: 8A and sadly 1B

One may be in awe. But this is normal. Everyday life. Living and feeding on books and tuitions. Good result, Mum's happy. Bad result, me being grounded. Sometimes, I do get jealous with others that obtained bad result but their parents do not complain nor grounded them. If I was to get that result, no TV, no computer, no playing etc.

For once, I want to live, standing with my own expectations. Not theirs!

I've been home for almost 3 months. And what do I get when meeting friends and families out there?

"On sem break?" - No la. Finish foundation already
"How long?" - Dunno yet. Have to choose other Uni
"How's result?" - Not good
"Oh, you should do better."
"So how now?" - Havent think about it
"Repeat la.." - Dunno

Am I a living soul to meet all their expectations? Stop asking!! I'll think when I'm ready!!

So never expect me to post at least an entry a day.. Hahaha.

Thanks for reading !! 

p/s: Not trying to show off. Just trying to release my stress after a phone call from aunt. And please stop asking where I want to go after this, studying I mean.

Scared for LIFE

I watched this one drama with the family that reminds me of my mischievous days. In this drama, there's these two children aged 6 that ran away from home. The children were found later on. We often watched dramas on how teenage kids rebel by running away from home. Then their parents desperately find them and give them whatever they want. On the truth side, that is not what happen to me.

 

Don't be cheated by this innocent face

 

I was always a rebellious child since small. I bet no where on Earth any parents would want to have me as their child. My rebellious years started when I reached puberty. It's the hormones that made me a bad girl.

A 6 y/o me

 

I stole. I lied. I cheated. I lost Mum's trust. All in all, Dad remains to be a soft spot in me. No matter how bad can I be or how mad he is, he would always calmly, in a soft tone scolded me. And also the canning. He never shout.

My handsome Dad !!

Grumpy child since small

 

It was 2006. That day, Dad forced me to cut my fringe. You know how in teenage years that we think without fringe, like all those actress and models' hair are very cool. Well, at least that's what I think. Fringe are stupid at that time. Only nerds would have them.

I'm the one in the middle with the orange shirt.

You see how every of my girls have their fringe tied to the back or side

 

Reluctantly, I went to the barber with Mum to have my hair cut. I've always hate to go to the barber as long as I can remember. That time, my visit is only once a year. It was always few weeks before Chinese New Year. I remember how I cried to my every barber visit. I almost went to every barber that is in town. No one knows what I want. Barbers are nothing but devils who love to cut my hair very short and purposely make me look ugly.

That day I cried, thinking how am I going to face all my friends with the ugly fringe. My friends would laughed at me. My tuition teacher would teased me. I cried from the barber's till home and into the bathroom, washing my hair again and again hoping it would grow faster.

I refused to go tuition. That time, Dad came home from work for something and he knew everything. Calmly, Dad assured me on how the fringe makes me prettier and younger. As a stubborn girl should be, I refused to hear everything out. I refused to go tuition. Shouting here and there on how ugly my fringe is. Then Dad said, "If you don't want go tuition, get out of the house".

Say it! The influence of TV dramas, internets or anything. I quickly packed and ran away from home.

I can still recalled how Mum stopped by the roadside to ask me to go home at a junction to the big road. Stubbornly, I refused and keep on walking. Mum then drove away.

It was then when I realized that there's a lorry with 2 guys following me from behind. Keeping up with my slow, walking pace and stared at me like a lion staring at it's prey. Feeling afraid, I quickly called Mum and ran home.

I would like to tell others out there that I'm lucky to manage to reach home. I can't imagine if I still keeping on walking. I might not be here today. Perhaps, I'll be at the roadside, asking for money or entertaining my customers in budget hotels or whatsoever.

Home is the safest place on Earth. Never run away from home. But if you want to try your luck to see if your parents chased you or not or either wanting to be sell as prostitute, you can try. I've tried once and scared for life. If I were you, I would never ever try.

That also explain why I have few photos of my childhood and why I hate to take photos.

A child like me definitely test these two person patience

 

History has made me and shaped me into the person I am today

 

Mum & Dad,

Thanks for everything.

Sorry to be not what you expect me to be.

Sorry to bring disappointment in your life.

Sorry for every bad actions that I've done.

 

It is in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped

- Tony Robbins

 

Thanks for reading this entry

中秋節快乐

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival aka Moon cake Festival (中秋節快乐). I don't much about the origin of this festival. I just know on this very day we eat moon cakes and play lanterns under a very round and bright moon.

Perhaps this help

 

Last year, at this very day, the 15th day of the 8th month according to the Chinese lunar calendar, I was still in KL, staring at children playing lanterns and eating moon cakes with their families. To say that I don't miss home, it's a lie. I miss home very much and I wanted to eat moon cakes very much too. Wanted to buy one moon cake just for the celebration but then it's to expensive. So forget about it.

 

This year, I'm at home. So, after dinner, we sat down, enjoyed our moon cake and played lanterns. So happy. Hahaha..

 

That is a bull !! =P

 

Actually, nothing happen. Nothing special. The day goes on as normal. I don't like to eat moon cake. Mum was busy watching her drama. Niki was in school. Bloody Kevin was playing his computer games. Then I just remember, it's Mid-Autumn Festival wor. This maybe the last one which I get to celebrate with them. After this I will continue my studies ma, so don't know when can celebrate together again.

 

Asked Mum for lanterns and a camera. Washed my oily fringe. Asked Brenda and Eric to go change. Off we go to the backyard!

 

 

 

Preparing my props

Use the so called "Christmas" tree to hold the lanterns

 

 

My models for the night!

Brenda and Eric

 

I took both their pictures very nice hor. But when reach mine turn, it's a disaster. So this proves that I'm a better photographer than them.

 

Jacky !

He too wants to take a photo

 

A selfie of me !!

 

 

I feel like I'm lacking a lot on Chinese history. I can't find a logic explanation to why people play lanterns on mid-Autumn festival. So don't ask me.

 

I find this very interesting to me.
-> This afternoon the lights men came to do all the wiring for the walls. Two men. They entered thru the back door. Upon seeing them, Tiger was barking. Quickly, they ran out (lari lintang-pukang) of the house. On trying to save themselves, they still managed to get hold of the asbestos and close the gate. Then Popo: "Anjing tu kena tambat" (The dog is tied up) I guess that word from Popo assure them to not be afraid.

This may not be funny to you guys but I still laugh every time I told others. I find it very amusing. This shows that people are very afraid of the dog. That is only the sound of barking. Haven't meet eyes to eyes. So at least I feel secured that strangers won't dare to enter my house.

 

 I feel it's a waste to not camwhore with the beautiful, round moon tonight. However, I managed to get this......

 

I'm not praising him, or maybe I am. I always love how Xiao Ai pose for the camera. Elegant with high chest pose. And he never fails. He shall be the next Boo ! Shall polish more of his posing skills. Perhaps, one day, he can walk down the runway with Tyra Banks !

Our unsuccessful attempts in getting Xiao Ai to pose for the camera



Xiao Ai wishes everyone 中秋節快乐 !!

 

Thanks for reading this entry !

 

p/s: If you're wondering where's the moon cake, too bad there's none.

Girls Night

P-A-R-T-Y

 

All the girls are in town for their breaks and since our little gathering at Uncle Chua Signature is not enough, we went out again the next day which is the Sunday. Yeah, yeah. I know. This entry is long due. So I'm gonna make this short and simple.

 

We went out at 6.30 pm. It's difficult to find the right time to go out coz my girls are working part time at different places, different times. At 6.15, I received message at Wasak from Wei Qi to go out. Tell you a secret. That time, I was sitting here, the exact place I'm sitting right now, typing about an entry which I forget which one it is already and was wearing an old pajamas cox it's raining, very cold and I'm so lazy. I was totally unprepared.

 

Upon confirmation, quickly I fit in my jeans and a T-shirt and rushed down, just to remember there's no one to fetch me to town. Debated with Mum almost 10 minutes on why I should drive my own car there and not be send there. Mum was very reluctant to let me drive her CRV. Probably because I just scratched her car when we went to breakfast or because that car has lots of memories of Dad because it was the last car he bought before he left us.

 

Hungry ??

 

We had our Mongolian steamboat at a shop near town. Do Mongolian people really eat this kind of steamboat? If not why is it name Mongolian steamboat. I wondered.

 

Fishball? Chicken? Pork? Seafood?

 

Actually, steamboat is not my cup of tea. Firstly, eat no full. I mean, you see there's no rice. I NEED to eat rice. It's a MUST! Secondly, it takes time. You need to cook the ingredients yourself. I prefer to have it ready on the table. And the most common problem is the FIRE!! Traditional steamboat used charcoal. You need to make sure the there's always enough charcoal for the fire to burn. Sipek ma fan. Rather than enjoying your food, you will be busying fanning the fire or keeping adding charcoal.

 

I guess now we do not need that anymore with electric stove and rice cooker. We used to have steamboat for our reunion dinner when Dad was still with us. And once I asked Dad, why waste time eating steamboat with all the waiting? Dad replied that the hidden meaning behind steamboat is to get all the family members together in one table. And while waiting for the food to cook, family members can chit-chat among themselves. A great way to gather all family members.

 

Cut short, my dinner with the girls was awesome. And thanks to Wei Qi 'jie' that help kiap-ing all the fishballs and chicken into my bowl since I'm bad at using chopstick. Wei Qi 'jie', thanks!! I know how to use chopstick la. It's just that I'm shy.. Hihihi *blush

 

To my beautiful Wei Qi 'jie'

 

 

Not forgetting my Ninie 'jie' also that help kiap-ing the food for me! Keep calling people 'jie'. Body so big but called people 'jie' here 'jie' there. No la. Actually, from birthdates right, I'm the youngest of them all thou from body size, I'm the biggest. Hahaha.



 

Darunee aka Ninie aka sweet girl

 

Chee- zeee !!

 

And also to Qin Lin or Lynn!! I miss our high school days very much where we gossiped at the back of the class or at tuition centers!

 



 

Lynn : ROAR !!!

 

This is a memorable event okay? Cox this is my first time eating steamboat with others beside my family members thou it's not their first time la. They always go and steamboat with our other friends. It's just that I rather stayed at home, having dinner with my family. Yeah, I'm a family person thou I sometimes can't stand my bro.

 

 

And I think this is also my first time taking duo photographs with the girls all. I used to hate   don't like taking photographs cox I often feel that I'm ugly. No photos of me that are nice. I'm obsessed with taking selfie when I got my first smartphone, S II last year. After days and days of practicing, I'm now more confidence! =D So here's to my first of everything!

 

I think I spill to much secrets of mine already tonight. Lets just keep some more for the future. It will no longer be interesting if all secrets are to spill tonight. =P

 

To an amazing night out !! Cheers !!

 

Oh and well, if you're looking for pajamas party of nude photos, sorry to say that there's none. We don't do it that way. This is our version of "Girls Night". *peace (^_^)Y

 

Thanks for reading this entry ! *smile

 

p/s: "Wasak" is our language. In your language, it's Whatapps.