Creepyy

It's been a busy week. I'm just done with my Physic mid-term. Biology mid-term was done on last Saturday and Probability and Statistic was on the 10th of March. What is left is only Fundamental of Math which will be on Wed! Can't wait to get my beauty sleep. Haihh. With all the exam going on, my sleeping schedule was definitely a mess. Been sleeping like a pig on the afternoon and become a night owl at night. Well, since I'm having my Physic today, I woke up at 2 in the morning last night for my last minute revision. You know, me and physic. We can never get along. So, it's 2 am and the bed is so freaking comfy with the drizzly rain outside, I swear it was so difficult to get out of bed. But a student got to do what a student need. Woke up and went to the kitchen to boil some hot water to make milo when I spotted two Indian guys outside the corridor. I'm not suspicious at first but then it started to get really creepy when they keep pointing down below and peeped. I was so freaking scared that they would see me. Got to thank the housemates for the hanging pans and pots on the kitchen's window. They really saved my life last night. It was pwetty obvious right now that they are peeping someone down below there and it happens to be the window that they are peeping was a toilet's window. Why like that kind of people also got one?! Sipek hiao! Let me tell you something, even if you're freaking hiao, go find your free show somewhere better la. Be a little high class. There's plenty of porn videos out there with freaking sexy ladies that are willing to show. It's so low to peep at someone while they're bathing. But thank god la, they didn't record it. I was so shocked. Never in my mind thought that the world is so scary. What if there's someone that peep me too while I'm taking a shower? Please, girls out there, I beg you to be very very careful with your surroundings. If it happens on this particular girl today, who know when's our turn?

When I came back after class just now, I went to see what the two Indian guy really peeped at. And so there's a girl doing her laundry in the same house with the open toilet's window. I called her and told her what happen with broken English and Mandarin, macam itik and ayam. Asked her to be careful and closed the toilet's window. I'm not trying to boast myself. I help her with the hope that someday, someone will help me in turn. We don't live in this world alone. We live in a community and by community, we help to look out for each other. And if every single girl out there are more careful, perhaps rapping cases or such can be reduced. What is there with the little effort of reminding someone to be careful? It's not like I have wasted any penny for the words of advice. And by doing that also, I felt very happy knowing that I did something good today and the girl would be careful from now on. And even if she's taking my advice and decided to flaunt her valuable assets for everyone, it doesn't matters to me as long as I don't feel guilty for not telling her. Happiness can comes from all forms and by doing good deeds are one of them.

And Sha has been telling me her creepy incident with a Nigerian guy at McD. To cut the story short, the guy was staring at her all the time and even followed her to the toilets and waited in front of the toilet for 15 minutes. That would really freak me out if it happens to me. Thank god, Sha was not alone at that time. Today, Sha told me, an international student confessed his love for her. I really laughed out loud. The guy said it was love at first sight. Muahahaha. And they just knew each other for 3 days! Yeah, love is blind but then at some point, I can't help but to think that it was Sha's actions that lead him for something else. For instance, you never approve a stranger's friend request whom you just meet 3 days ago. For most people, Facebook is really a private things where you share almost everything like your daily activities, your personal details and such. So how can you let strangers in so easily. Sipek creepy. After hearing Sha's little incident at McD, each time I enter the lift, I would pray that no Nigerian guy enter with me. So far, so good and hopes it remain till the end of the year.

Physic test was okay. I know how to do but I'm not confident with my answer. The weird feeling as if it is wrong but I don't know what's wrong. The worst part would be the last question on the 5 principles of kinetic-molecular theory. I totally left that part blank. Great job, Karen. Way to score for Physic! The full marks was 50 so lets just aim for 35. When can Physic be like Biology? I used to be so sucked as Biology. When you're in Form 4, Biology, Physic and Chemistry was introduced and you don't older siblings to advice you on which subjects should go for tuition and such and just taking advice from friends with older siblings. They kept saying that Biology was easy and such but then in every exam, they cheated. Well, I was included also la. I'm not saying I'm the good student. Form 4 was an exciting year. Cheating in class and not get caught. How much better can your high school days be? Think back, how can the teachers be so blind? It was freaking obvious that the whole class cheated. Well, majority. A common sight if you're living with kia su people. You don't cheat, they cheat and get good result and you have to end up changing classes at the end of the year. That what's every students fear of. Downgrading of class. So I cheated, my friend betrayed us and report to the teacher. Me and bestie were so ashamed of ourself that we went for Biology's tuition the whole December holiday and vowed scored in Biology. Well deep down, I thanked the traitor for exposing us for not I shall never did so brilliantly in Biology. Imagine from E grade, I went to A- in SPM and it was all my hard work. No cheating. The appreciation really and solely goes to one teacher that I shall be thankful for, Cikgu Rohayah. She may not know that she is the reason to why I am so in love with Bio but her name shall forever be in my mind. Like they said, ribuan terima kasih!! Mwah mwah.

Life is so unfair. Whilst I'm struggling here with mid-term and test, Mum and the rest are going to Hong Kong Disneyland with the rest of extended family. And they are going for a week! I'm just rot to death here alone. Sipek jealous. Who don't want to go to Disneyland? No matter how old you are, you still wanna go Disneyland. That's where magic happens. I guess older, as in age people went there to reminiscence their childhood. Like seeing Mickey mouse, Princess Jasmine and such, we're reminded of how beautiful and wonderful our childhood is. It also explains why thesedays, producer loved to produce movies like 'Alice in Wonderland', 'Mirror Mirror' etc. It all reminds us of our happy childhood days. Mum just have to buy lots of stuff for me as compensation then. =D

 

And so, it's into 9 days since the MH370 is missing. "Where could the plane as big as that be?" is the question that is still lingering around everyone's mind. How are the passengers and cabin crew? Are they still alive? Well, we definitely hope and pray for good news. Only after a week that the Malaysian's government confirmed that it's hijacking. The hell? After a week? Gosh, I don't have comment on that. It's very obvious that it's hijacking from the start! You have stolen passports for god sake. The council that's handling the matter is so lack of imagination and hypothesis. Perhaps they should watch more movies like the Con Air. The one where the flight was supposed to transport high profile criminals to somewhere and in the middle of the flight, the prisoners created riot and took over the plane. Thou it was a really really old movie as in 1997, it was one of my favorite for it showed that there are good criminal too. Poe the main actor, was sentenced to prison because he killed a drunk man who assaulted his pregnant wife. Well, it's more like defense but then killing is still a crime.

And while the #MH370 is trending, here comes attention seekers. There have been fake Twitter account of the pilot's daughter, the touching Whatapps message of a daughter to her mother who is a cabin crew and such. Suddenly, everyone's claiming that they knew the passengers on boards. They happen to be cousins, neighbors, friends and such. Please la. Stop it. So low of you to gain popularity is times like this. And the media that interviewed the family members and such. I don't think it's a wise choice. Yes, you're doing your job but then why do you go disturb the family members at bad times like this, asking how they felt etc. As if it make any difference. The most controversial news at the moment was the bomoh or the shaman  who did his spiritual acts at KLIA. People have been condemning him to put a shame on Malaysia and such but then if he really has the power to locate the flight, why not? Till today, science and technology still can't prove the existence of God. But do God exist? Yes! If he's who he claim he is, then let him do his job. I don't see how this really put a shame on Malaysia. If the shaman did indeed found the plane, he would be crown as a hero. But sadly, he does not. It's funny how the society judge you. You succeed, you're a hero, you fail, you're a shame. You know what's shameful? The fact that our Minister of Civil Aviation, Datuk Azaharudin speak broken English at press conference with international and local media. That is my opinion is more shameful than the shaman act. You as a minister, can't even speak a proper English and yet dare you present yourself at a press conference! Balik kampong la!

As for 13 March, here's the list of the countries that have been helping in the search.

Much gratitude

 

And to our heroes and heroines that gave their best to the mission

Salute!!

 

#MH370

 

A touching video for #MH370

 

"MH370, we hope the radar can see you. If you copy, keep flying at your current height until you reach your destination. We'll clear the way for you. Everybody is more than happy to let you be the first to land. The sky is clear, with temperature in Beijing at five degrees Celsius, a little bit cold. Please wear your coats to keep warm. Remember to hug your family and friends after you disembark. They love you, they really do."

 

I felt very angry with our government, not just over MH370 but also the way they have run this country all these years, doing what they like, arrogant as hell and not taking responsibility for all the nefarious things that they have done. Their control over everything and all their agencies and goons including the Immigration and the Judiciary have come back to bite them in the backside HARD! And the sins of their past have culminated in this shit we're in now regarding MH370. This could turn out to be the biggest disaster of this century. Politically, the volcano is boiling and seething underneath. Thinking about the hostages and felt their anguish and their terror. My heart goes out to them. There were children on board. If it was the PM's close family members that were on board, I bet with everything that I have that he would have gone high and low to search for the plane and not having time to sit at the mamak's shop sipping his coffee or buying RM 1 per kilo chicken at the market.

Now we known that they flew for another 5 hours. How horrible, how terrifying that must have been. They must have prayed and prayed, that surely, surely, they would be rescued. There are 239 people on board and its a huge modern plane. The whole world would know and search for them. And when they touch down, the authorities would be there to save them and their ordeal would be over. They must have prayed like that. But its 9 days on now. No one has come to save them. The plane has reached its destination. It is now hidden in a disused hangar in some abandoned airfield somewhere and I hope its not in Kazakhstan/Turkmenistan/Afghanistan/Iran. That would have been a very bad news. It has probably even been refueled too, ready for Act II of this unfolding tragedy.

Families are hoping that their loved ones are still alive. On the one hand, I hope with them too that they will see their loved ones again but, how are the passengers doing now? How are they feeling? How are they being treated? I know for a fact they wouldn't have been put up in a 5-star hotel. God, please, if they are still alive, have mercy on their souls. The really scary part is that if it's hijacking, why no one has asked for ransom? Obviously, these hijackers are not interested in money. No, they want something else.

CNN has reported that the plane was handpicked by the hijackers. They have been observing and planning for months. They handpicked the pilot for his ability and experience at flying. He was an A1 pilot, passionate about aviation, he even had a flight simulator at home and he would invite friends over to have a go. Nothing wrong with that but somebody noticed. Who knew he would be flying this plane at this time (under cover of night) and this date and on this route? Was there an inside job? The hijacking was not done by 1 or 2 people, there is a whole underground network involved. And those 2 Iranians? Were they just attempting to migrate and had nothing to do with this? Why did immigration let them through? Were they just lax or was it all planned? And what about the cabin crew? The passengers?  Who knew the passenger and crew list? This can of worms is getting bigger and deeper by the day. Its gonna blow up in our faces. And I am scared.

Police officers are now tracking and checking the pilot's background and public are already condemn him. Is it a sin to have a flight simulator at home? In my opinion, it just show how much he loves his job. What? If you're a playing a flight simulator game at home, does that mean, you're planning to hijack a plane? So for the sake of everyone, please stop making conclusions until there's valid evidence to that. Think of how hurtful of his family members to hear or read negative comments about him. If anything, save that energy and prayed more for their safety. Thou I doubted that the government is gonna revealed if there's evidence to it. Malaysian government hides lots of stuff from us all. And guess what, I need to get a clearer view by watching CNN news and not Astro Awani anymore.

Going back in a week time by flight. I would be lying if I said I'm not afraid. Hell. I'm so traumatized that I plan to cancel my flight and just take the bus. Well if they were to hijack a bus, it would be found easier. What if they plan another hijack? What if something happens to me? What if I don't reached home safely? Imagine biding goodbye to your family members with the hope of coming back them soon, but then to never be back again. Imagine how devastated they would be. I told mum, I don't wanna die without a tomb. I don't wanna have a mass grave for my body exploded till pieces. I'm scared! I'm traumatized! We'll see how it goes by then.

 

Life update:

 

Have you ever take a selfie and wondered why am I so pwetty in pictures?

It's like you're someone new in the photo.

Someone you don't recognized.

Someone that's not you.

 

It just remind me that we are all pwetty in our ways.

We don't need others to judge us for they don't have the right to.

We are the judge or ourself!

 

Loving my long hair thou it's very troublesome at times like washing

=)

 

#FirstWorldProblems

I can't never have a perfectly nice nails coz I tended to peel my nails when I'm nervous.

And it gets worst during exam week!

 

I think this is it. Am so tired right now. I've never written something this long right? So this shall be the first. Haven't sleep in 14 hours. Bless me for I don't know the reason why am I still in front of the lappy to have this entry written when every parts of my body ache to rest.

 

"Still praying. Still wishing for the best.

Our country might not be perfect but this incident has only made me (me too) feel more patriotic.

To negative people out there, please just zip it. Thank you very much" - Marion Caunter

 

XOXO~

 

#PrayForMH370

Iz a sad day for all of us here. It's on the headlines everywhere in Malaysia and also worldwide. In case that you're not aware, the MAS flight MH 370 from Kuala Lumpur to Beijing has been reported missing for almost 23 hours on board with 227 passengers including 2 infants and 12 crew members. The flight departed Kuala Lumpur at 12.41 am yesterday as 7 March and was expected to land in Beijing at 6.30 the same day. However, at 2.40 am, it was reported missing. Like missing in action. Puff. Gone! No where to be found.

 

 

More news can be read here
MAS aircraft gone missing
List of passengers and aircraft crews
Missing airplane triggers Southeast Asia search
Oil slicks found
Missing MH 370
Boeing 777 Safest Jets

The video on the chronology of events leading to the disappearance of flight MH370

Was so sad and deeply hope that it is gonna be found by the time I woke up tomorrow. I actually received the news at 2 pm when I woke up since I'm a good girl, I actually did my lab report last night till 4 in the morning. So no one can say that I'm slacking coz there's a good reason for why I woke up late today.

The bad news is that the flight only carried 7.5 hours of fuel!! And they said Boeing 777 is the safest flight. Hope it really live up to its reputation lo. At this point, I don't know whether to think that it's a terrorist attack better or a plane crash better? Anywhere they are, I hope they are all fine. God, please protect them by all means. My prayer goes to all those on board. There's nothing that we can do here except sending our prayers for them all and be hopeful to have them all safe even thou we don't know fucking know anyone. Deeply prayed that all especially the children on board are safe no matter where they are.

It is said that it was reported crashing in Vietnam or something. Rescue team from Malaysia, Singapore, Vietnam and recently the US has been in search of the missing flight. Gahh!! At this moment, it's like almost 24 hours already. If they crashed in the sea, they would be in cold, hunger and fear.

Too much to stomach for a regular Malaysian. Water outage, haze, injustice, airplane missing and many more. When will this ever end? Last year, this time of the month, we were being attack by the Philippines, more like the Sulu Sultanate and his followers who claimed that Sabah was rightly belong to them. Innocent people were killed by foolish terrorists who decided to be greedy and wanted to steal something that no longer belong to them. I can still remember how I cried when I read the news on our policemen and arm forces that were killed. It saddens me becoz that person who was killed was someone's dad and husband who decided to put his loyalty for the country first and by that defending the country leaving their families behind with the hope to end this all and gain back the peace we had previously. 

Why must there be darkness in this world? Can I be stupid enough to hope that this world is filled only with good things and not the bad ones? Can people be good and kind and not be greedy and selfish? Can't I keep dreaming where in this world, all is kind?  

 

Anyway, as for now, my thoughts and prayers go for all on MH 370!

 

Live updates can be found here: Astro Awani

 

 

HOPE,

 

Good news shall be hear soon!!

 

#PrayForMH370

COPE-ING

Have a solid one hour before my morning class. This week has been so hectic that I can't wait to end it. Wait! Scratch that. I don't wanna end it!!! Next week is HELL! I have all mid-term and test coming up. Sad to say, that include Physic too. There's really something going on between me and Physic that I can't understand the subject. Hmm. Looking back at it, I was pwetty fine with the subjects in Form 4. Well I don't know what goes wrong during Form 5. Is it the teacher coz we kinda get a male teacher for that. A young male teacher, to be specific. So there's goes all the awkward moments. No offense but then I tend to be shy a little around teachers that I'm not familiar with. Yeah. And it definitely affects my understanding coz I put a distance there. After a month, I think, we got a female teacher as replacement but then things still the same. Guess the problems is not on the teacher but the subject itself. GAhhh!! I hate PHYSIC!!! And also to make things worst, my lecture is a young male teacher. There's goes the problem. LOL! Forget the remarks on the teacher. Whenever I'm in Physic class, my attention seems to be drifting away. Physic class is the most boring class where I tend to yawn more and day-dreaming more. I just don't know why!! Is there a medicine for this kind of sickness? I don't think I'll be ever using Archimedes principle or the rotational acceleration in my life. Enlighten me please someone, why do we need to study Physic? And so I got my Physic's marks for the test 1 this week. *roll eyes Hahaha. Well, I expect it to be half only, which is 25 of 50. Guess what I got?! I got 29/50. It was okay la *the wave-like hand gesture Haih. Partly, it's because I don't revise on the projectile motion part, hoping it won't be asked during the test and partly is due to carelessness. having another test this coming 17 March. Am so not gonna take things for granted anymore.

Me? Life here? I'm almost done with the first semester here already. Talking about how fast time flies. I guess I still missed my KBU life thou I'm deeply aware that we're not going back there. I missed the small class where there are only 8 of us. I missed where we treated each one of us like a family members. I missed going shopping at One Utama with Annie, Kitty and Wee Kiat. I missed laughing hysterically with Sofea and Nurul at the most random jokes. I missed everything there. From the uncle that sells my favourite mee soup to the akak that sweep the hostel's corridor every morning, who would crack a smile at me when I smiled at her. I missed eating KFC during weekends. I missed Mr Richard, the hostel's warden who loves to bebel each time I saw him. Damn him and his philosophy about life. I missed my peaceful life with sweet and nice people in it where I don't need to constantly put my guards up.

Here, I constantly need to watch my step, fearing that I would one day stepped on the broken glass of the beer bottles everyday while I'm walking to school. Here, I'm constantly feared that one day Sha would leave me or abandon me for someone new. Feeling so insecure. Here, I constantly feared that one day people would know my real age and laugh at me for being so stupid and have to repeat another year of foundation. Here, I need to constantly watch my back as if something is gonna happen if I put my guards down. I'M TIRED!!

Life here is so stressful. Going to class as early as 8 in the morning only to come back at 6 in the afternoon. It's not everyday but then it's still tiring. I'm mentally and physically tired. At nights, I only managed to get an hour of sleep, 2 if I'm lucky. I'll blame it on the as hard as a rock bed. Seriously! I'm having problems! The weird thing is that in the afternoon, I can get 3-4 hours of nap but at night I het none. I guess I'm too tired to bother in the afternoon.

It is really hectic. Test,mid-term, assignments etc. Thou the lab reports here are done in groups, weird enough I find it more stressful than doing it myself. Have to constantly checked others, fearing they might screw up the lab reports and there goes my marks. I desperately wanna pass my foundation this year. I'll be damn if I don't get at least a pointer 3 at the end of the year.

Studying in KBU for year definitely is not a waste. At least I know how to write a lab report correctly or presenting my presentation confidently. Since there are only the 8 of us there, the lecture really paid attention on every one of us, making sure we did everything brilliantly. You don't know how to write a report? Ms Jaclyn is more than gladly to teach you how to write her Chemistry's lap reports with her sarcasm. Ms Wan expects the best out of your presentation where she makes you practicing presenting your slide for hours in front of your laptop prior to the presentation day. That all makes e what I am today. Perhaps someone might thing I excel in the reports that I'm assigned with or the presentation I'm presenting. The fact is that I take no credits for all of it. I gotta thanked my previous lecture for it.

LOL! It's already 8.11. Gotta go ready for my 9 am class. I hope things would get better as time passed. The process of coping to something new is not a process that I'm fond with but then there's always new things in life that I have to live with it. I can't be forever in my comfort shell. Nothing beats the rewards at the end of this all. I'm so looking forward to my short holidays at the end of teh month! Going back home for 4 days to be with Mum. At least there's something to look forward in this stressful month.

XOXO~